“The eyes are the gateway to your soul.”
Blood test cleared, paperwork cleared. Everything was expedited to ensure that I get this surgery quickly.
The only reason why I passed by blood test is because I gamed the system by revving up my exercise and activity levels and removing sugary drinks from my food intake before heading to see the doctor.
Off I went to SNEC. I was dreading this day, not knowing what to expect and not knowing what was going to happen. I had a hard time going to sleep the previous night.
A friend brought me out till late. I was just dragging my waking hours longer.
Time to seems to past quickly when we sleep doesn’t it?
The nurses made a mark right above my eyebrow to state that this is going to be the eye that was to be operated on, so that there will be no mistake.
I sat quietly in the waiting area with my mum, expecting to be summoned any time. It did not take long.
Instead of being in utter chaos in my mind, there was a resigned silence. Peace before the storm I suppose, the storm which is about to take place. I know it had to be done, to save my windows to the world… Or what’s left of it.
In front of me is a door. I remember looking at the door and thinking to myself:
“Beyond this door, I will be on my own.”
This path I walked is not what others should follow. 