29 days and at 2359, I finally stood up and faced forward for the 1st time for more than 15 minutes after 1 month.
I laid face down, 23 hours a day for the past month religiously without fail to ensure that my left eye has the best chance of having sight. All I had were audiobooks for entertainment and the occasional visit from friends. These were visits that I wished could last forever.
The doctor told me that I will never have perfect vision back for that eye because I delayed treatment. There will always be a huge chunk of blind spot on my left and the vision field will be constricted. To what extent, only time can tell.
At 1st, it was darkness. The retina was disturbed and swollen, there was no light, only darkness. The doctor say it will come back slowly and he was confident, or so he sounded.
Eventually, days turned to weeks.
It was safer to just stay on the bed and not move around much other than follow ups.
humans have 2 eyes to have a 3D view of the world. I only had 1 eye, everything to me was flat. I could tell where the steps were and will sometimes trip and fall thinking its flat.
All the ugly yellow lines you see on steps and pavements? They are there to help people like us who see everything as flat. Even today, I depend on these lines as cues, especially at night. The treatment took away much of my light sensitive cells so I am almost blind in dark places as my eyes take longer to adapt the the surroundings.
My doctor will always tell me that I only have 1 good eye left. And I agree. A reminder of how precious sight is.
At around the 2 week mark, I finally noticed light in my left eye.
Slowly turning to shadows, then very blur lines.
Doctor told me it is because I have silicon oil in my eye and the vision will get clearer after the oil is extracted.
I should have figured earlier that what went in must come out somehow. And that was how I know that I have a 2nd surgery on the left eye 1 year after the 1st.
This path I walked is not what others should follow. 