A friend shared with me that her cousin passed away, leaving 2 kids and a wife behind. He was around my age, mid 30s. This triggered a memory in me. There was a period of time, around 1 and a half months before going into the hospital for emergency dialysis, where I was afraid to …
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My life during dialysis
Throughout my year on dialysis, I had always say that I do not want to go through the kidney transplant surgery. There were many things in my mind that stopped me from wanting it. Things like the risks for both me and my mother, the hospitalization stay, recovery period etc. There came a point in …
The cost of dialysis
I was out of the hospital with the shiny new catheter installed on my chest. Dialysis in the hospital has been smooth with no hiccups. I felt okay. It was not a process as bad as I had imagined it to be. Of course, there is always a reminder at the back of my head, …
The gift that came 10 years early
One of the many conversations we had in the hospital, one of them is the possibility of a kidney transplant. There are 2 types of kidneys available for transplants, kidneys from living donors and kidneys from donor who just passed away. The chances of a cadaver kidney transplant in Singapore is like striking lottery. Other …
The thigh catheter for dialysis
Well having a tube up my groin was not a pleasant experience. I had to keep my thigh straight to avoid bending the tube that connects my artery to the catheter. I was told to lie down and not get out of bed at all. The nurses afforded me the best care they could. I …
First Near Death Experience
I woke up suddenly in the middle of the night, looking at a strange place. First thing that came into existence in my mind is… “Why am I here in this shit hole again.” As though I was back from… somewhere. Back then, somewhere in 2016, maybe August or September, I was dragging my heavily …
Proud to smoke since 12…
You know, people always say that you are who you mix with. I have been a rebel since I was 12. Whatever you tell me not to do, I will. I smoked since I was 12, and today, I proudly announce that to everyone. Smoking for me back then was to belong in the in …
The troubles do not seem to end
The thing about problems, they do not seem to stop once they come. I had cataracts on both eyes because of diabetes and the retina detachment. Yes, cataracts at 30. Imagine going to the waiting room to be surrounded by 50 year olds or older. I stuck out like a sore thumb. I had a …
Photography – A hobby lost
Photography was one of my favorite hobbies. I do not do any post production, no alterations to the visuals of the photos, no filters. Armed with my Nikon D90, I would shoot anything from sunset to animals. I don’t really enjoy shooting posed shots. Cannot seem to capture the moment for the person. To me, …
Fear, it keeps us alive and keeps us from being alive.
I don’t want to look bad. I don’t want to be wrong. I don’t want to go up to that stage and address a crowd of eager listeners of my new and brilliant idea. When was the last time you made a choice because you want it to happen? When was the last time you …
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This path I walked is not what others should follow. 