A friend shared with me that her cousin passed away, leaving 2 kids and a wife behind. He was around my age, mid 30s. This triggered a memory in me. There was a period of time, around 1 and a half months before going into the hospital for emergency dialysis, where I was afraid to …
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My life during dialysis
Throughout my year on dialysis, I had always say that I do not want to go through the kidney transplant surgery. There were many things in my mind that stopped me from wanting it. Things like the risks for both me and my mother, the hospitalization stay, recovery period etc. There came a point in …
Central Venous Catheter
There are 3 options for dialysis, Internal Arteriovenous Fistula Internal Arteriovenous Graft Central Venous Catheter Both AV fistula and AV graft require a surgeon to cut the arm open to modify the veins and arteries in there to create an access for the dialysis needle. This process is irreversible and side effects include loss of …
The gift that came 10 years early
One of the many conversations we had in the hospital, one of them is the possibility of a kidney transplant. There are 2 types of kidneys available for transplants, kidneys from living donors and kidneys from donor who just passed away. The chances of a cadaver kidney transplant in Singapore is like striking lottery. Other …
First Near Death Experience
I woke up suddenly in the middle of the night, looking at a strange place. First thing that came into existence in my mind is… “Why am I here in this shit hole again.” As though I was back from… somewhere. Back then, somewhere in 2016, maybe August or September, I was dragging my heavily …
The troubles do not seem to end
The thing about problems, they do not seem to stop once they come. I had cataracts on both eyes because of diabetes and the retina detachment. Yes, cataracts at 30. Imagine going to the waiting room to be surrounded by 50 year olds or older. I stuck out like a sore thumb. I had a …
Fear, it keeps us alive and keeps us from being alive.
I don’t want to look bad. I don’t want to be wrong. I don’t want to go up to that stage and address a crowd of eager listeners of my new and brilliant idea. When was the last time you made a choice because you want it to happen? When was the last time you …
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This path I walked is not what others should follow. 